12 Confessions From People Who Struggle With Depression
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(dramatic instrumental music) (metal squeaking) – [Voiceover] I have depression. My friends joke around with me, saying that I act so depressed. If only they knew what
was really going on. – [Voiceover] The worst
thing about having depression is not knowing when it’s going to hit you. – [Voiceover] Having
depression is hell on earth. I constantly feel like I’m drowning. There are days when
medication just doesn’t help. – [Voiceover] I have depression, and my meds not only make
me not care about anything, they make me into an emotionless robot. – [Voiceover] Having
depression is so frustrating, because I want to be happy, but I feel like I don’t deserve it. – [Voiceover] Today, I cleaned my house. It may not sound like
a big accomplishment, but to me, it’s one step closer
to overcoming my depression, and I’m proud of myself for
finding the motivation to do it. – [Voiceover] Having
depression is like being in an abusive relationship with yourself, both physically and mentally. – [Voiceover] The worst
part about having depression is when everyone tells
you to try and be happy. – [Voiceover] I’m constantly tired, no matter how much I sleep, no matter how little I do in the day. Having depression is exhausting. – [Voiceover] I have depression, and I’m scared nobody will ever
want to love or respect me. – [Voiceover] I will never be ashamed of the fact that I go to therapy, and take medication for
my depression and anxiety. Best decision I ever made for myself. – [Voiceover] I’ve
beaten depression before. I can beat it once again. I won’t give up so easily. (dramatic instrumental music)

100 thoughts on “12 Confessions From People Who Struggle With Depression

  1. I cry over the stupidest things, like today I cried because my pillow fell off my bed. I will literally cry if I see someone named Rebecca because that's the name of my friend who killed herself.

  2. The hardest part of having this for a long time is that you see how time passes and everyone improves in life, and you are petrified, without advancing

  3. "It's like being in an abusive relationship with yourself, both physically and mentally" could not have worded it better.

  4. I hate my life. I try to tell people I'm depressed, they either don't believe me or don't do anything about it. I tried telling the guidance counsellor at my school, and she told me it was probably a phase.

  5. People who do not suffer with depression do not understand exactly what you are saying. They think it's just feeling low and tired.
    Speak to your doctor or a counsellor.
    It's a not easy to put such dark feelings and lack of hope in to words that non sufferers could possibly understand. They have never felt such intense pain.
    Don't give up trying to get someone to listen who can help.

  6. i want help but how can i get it? plz help i cant call the numbers bc my mum wont understanf anythig and u wanna tell my doctor but he thing is I DONT EVEN FRIKING KNOW MY DOCTER! ive never met him/her bc i never have injuries othérs know of..

  7. I think i have depression and I feel like dying and I ask people how they would wanna die i have this crave to just dissapear I have suicidal thoughts I don't feel like getting up or talking to anyone If I was being myself everywhere I went I think I would be crying

  8. Depression is like this and more for me. My stomach feels tight and theres a stinging sensation in my lungs when I feel sad, but I don't feel like it's an emotion anymore because its so normal to me. My emotions are all just physical reactions in my eyes, which makes it hard to feel at all. My depression is, on top of all of this, an addiction to sadness. Its the only thing that feels really satisfying to me. Crying is a relief; a comfort. I don't feel 100% sure I've ever genuinely felt happy or angry, just distracted from things that give me anxiety, or daydreaming. Those two things are the closest I've ever felt to 'happy', and frustration and pressure and stress are closer to sadness than anger to me. I sometimes think I'm a psychopath, because I often ponder about my motives and everything I do for other people solely happening because it just benefits me. Deep down I know everything I do is for myself and I'm selfish and I don't really feel guilty about it. My depression means something different than yours. Everyone's is different.

  9. It's weird how only 2% of the population actually have depression and everyone in the comments are saying, yes I have depression, and me too it's so hard p, ahhh. Most of these people feel sad once in a while and say "well it must be depression"

  10. I don't have depression but I can relate to this so much. Everyday I wake up and think to myself "I made it. I'm so glad that I'm still alive."

  11. I have been dealing with depression since August of 2015. Some days, my depression gets so bad that I just want to kill myself.

  12. I was recently diagnosed with depression, but I feel like I've been dealing with the symptoms for so long. It's exhausting but soon I'm getting medication and with weekly therapy I hope I'll get better soon 🙂

  13. I have not left my house in 3 months and im an emotional wreck having to deal with my sister and mom and dad who dont understand my mood swings and im only 13 years old, why am i so depressed at this age

  14. My therapist was confused – she said "you don't have low self esteem, yet you have cronic depression and attempted suicide" I just said "I have no reason not to care for myself just because I have depression. And it's because I care for myself that I would want to end this life thing" I judge no one.

  15. please will you go to LIthium orotate on your tube,not lithium carbonate which is toxic and prescribed< orotate will be absolutely likely to cure your depression it has done mine I am just normal no highs no lows it just washed away. I take it twice a day 5mg as its sold cheaply amazon. you will also sleep better. but you have to take it like paracetamol it wears off so you take another,its not addictive it is only a mineral it is harmless. They say dont mix it with prescribed drugs but I have and so far no trouble. Look on youtube under lithium orotate and see what is said by many people. It really does work

  16. I have depression to this day, since 2012. I lost my dad and started having suicidal thoughts from time to time. Fortunately I found a way to cope my depression with something cheerful and uplifting. Nobody knew my secret, but I'll give you a hint. (Look closely at my icon.) Whenever I see it, I always knew how to pull myself together. 1,000 Thanks to them. 😸😸😸

  17. That one guy who said depression is like an abusive relationship with yourself both physically and mentally
    That's a great way of explaining it and it hurt honestly

  18. Having depression is like having a empty box. You can't fill it with happiness or anger or sadness. It's just empty and there's nothing you can do about it..

  19. my anxiety is seriously affecting my a levels…I constantly have this gut feeling I won't suddenly do badly for a levels and get a C and have no offers by the end…

  20. My depression is weird. It is like something is on the back of my shoulders draining my energy and i feel this weird sensation behind my shoulders… whenever i try to feel any kind of happiness the sensation gets worse and worse… i just hope it goes away so I can really focus on my studies

  21. I got picked on in school a few weeks ago, and it just came to the point when I don't want to go to school anymore… I want to stay at home. Sometimes out of nowhere I am feeling all happy and bubbly but suddenly I just start to cry. My parents tell me: "Oh forget about those bullies. They only want to see you cry." But the truth is that I just can't. I always feel tired when I wake up and go to school. My parents VERY rarely say this whenever I try to tell them that someone annoyed me in school: " I don't want to hear more about Insert name here " I feel paranoid and all I do in school is just draw, and try to pay attention in class. I'm starting not to believe any of my classmates and I have a hard time trusting people in school other than the teachers and some students who are older than me. My parents won't let me go to a different school, though I want to very badly. I don't know what to do. I'm trying my best to look very happy in school, but whenever It shows trough that I'm in a bad mood then I refuse to tell anyone who asks me what's wrong. Not even a teacher.

  22. People at my school always are like: ''God, why do you act so depressed?" or ''Are you depressed, cause the only thing you do is listening to music?''. It's really annoying, cause they also joke about depression, suicide & self-harm. And my sister does excatly the same…

  23. My anxiety/depression is like my brain is split in two. One wants me to overcome it, the other side doesn't.
    The other side doesn't want me to get over it.
    And I don't know what to do.

  24. Sometimes, when im alone and tired of trying to swim up, I just let my depression consume me as I curl into a ball to sleep and cry, it feels good in a sadistic way

  25. Emotionally abused since childhood by parents, just discovered that mom cheats through her messages, not only abusive but also a hypocrit , and I've been fighting depression for more than 6 months when I'm just 16 y.o. The worst thing about it is that I can't tell my parents when they're the main reason , so I can't help myself with medications or going to therapy.

  26. me and most of my friends are depressed or have some kind of mental illness (but mostly anxiety and depression) and that's kinda one of the reasons we're friends, bc we always help each other with our problems. however, there was this one girl who was very outgoing and basically the opposite of us. she was my friend's best friend for awhile, so it's not like we could just stop talking to her. though recently, she had been starting a lot of fights, trying to break all of us apart. she claimed she was tired of hanging out with a bunch of "emo, depressed losers" and that we were nobodies and no one liked us. she even started to make up lies saying my friend (the one who was her best friend) went into a bedroom alone with this one guy even though both of them were gay. she was ruining our lives. and after all of this, she claimed we put her through so much, when she doesn't know what really happened to us. i went into a long state of depression after this, to the point where i was almost home schooled. panic attacks became a lot more often. i even started having suicidal thoughts for the first time in my life. so please, i want to make it aware that mental illness is not a choice. it isn't something people want to have. it's not a cry for attention. it's a burden that none of us want.

  27. I’ve recently fell into a large episode of depression but at school I tried as hard as I could to push it away as I hate attention, a boy picked up on it and started teasing me and telling me that I should kill myself, and honestly now, I’m considering it.

  28. I'm depressed. I'm only 14 and I've been depressed for about a year and a half, but I didn't understand what was wrong until a few months ago. It's like the world all came crashing down on me at once. Abusive relationship/friendships, a terrible breakup, my mom having cancer, and being super stressed about school made everything 500 times worse than it already was. I used to be depressed about school and thinking I would never go anywhere with my life and that I'd get stuck in a boring job, and that nothing I was learning was important. Now I have all these added things that make it so much worse and I just want to… Not exist. But I'm scared of dying

  29. when you put on efforts not to look too
    much like a zombie every damn day and one day you’re just even more exhausted than usual and someone just comes to you and be like “damn girl you look depressed haha” 😑

  30. "Having depression is like being in an abusive relationship with yourself, both physically and mentally." …And now I'm crying. That's so accurate.

  31. I have depression and one reason the guy I like so much is because he’s recovering from depression himself so he’d understand and wouldn’t just tell me that It’s a teen phase

  32. …I feel bad for having depression because I feel like I dont have a reason and me being depressed is unfair to people who actually struggle…..😕

  33. I feel guilty for having depression. I am a mom and I should be fawning over my child, instead he avoids me because he knows mommy's brain hurts…

  34. I have depression and a cutter and I feel worse when people make smart remarks about depression or cutting.Also when I try my hardest at things and they call me "pretty"which means stupid.Does anyone else feel this way?

  35. I hate it when my parents tell me to smile more because I look so sad and unwelcoming. I hate it even more when I smile and they feel the need to ask why I'm smiling.

  36. When I was told to smile I felt like I’m stapping my heart but It doesnt hurt the same way,it felt like nobody care about me

  37. I have an ibf with depression and i know that because i don’t have depression i probably will never understand it fully but i try to make her day better when i can although i don’t get to talk with her very often

  38. Unsolicited advice? Embrace your own monsters and learn to live with it so it can no longer scares you. You made it through another day and you'll definitely make it through the others. I won't tell you to cheer up because that wont do anything, instead I wish you all strength. You'll get through this.

  39. I have depression and anxiety. I stopped my meds because of my gynecologist who thought it was causing hormonal problem. I was all good on meds till yesterday(it used to make me sleepy but not sad atleast) and this morning I woke up feeling like something heavy clenched on my chest.

  40. One time in P.E I feelt really bad and I honestly wanted to take my own life, a teacher came up to me and asked if they could do anything to help and I had only one request, to see my sister (she also went to that school), but they said no. I have never wanted to take my own life more than on that day. I have been  much better now under summer break but I don't want to go back because I don't want to feel that way anymore. (Sorry for my English)

  41. I hate how people assume that if u have depression, ur sad and miserable all the time . But we act okay and no one can tell the difference, and even if they do they won’t think twice and forget.

  42. Allot of people do not talk about their problems they just bottle it all up in their head i.e traumas from the past, feelings of not wanting to do anything, wanting to sleep the day away, or drink and use drugs to get through the day, feelings of worthlessness and not feeling like they belong, feelings or harming themselves, feelings of not thinking they can be loved…etc the list can go on. With what I went through in my life i should have got help years ago! from all my traumas when when i was a boy. People in my life i.e family should have insisted that i got help…but instead i drank alcohol for over 20 years (starting when i was a teenager) because of my anxiety and depression was so bad!. I need therapy and want to get help. All the best to all who suffer with Anxiety or depression there is hope for you.

  43. I made a vlog about my depression story and I would love for everyone to check it out on my channel! It would mean so much to help as many people as I can who struggle with mental illness! Thanks!

  44. Having depression 10 years now been on meds systematically one year now. I couldn't change the reason I was depressed the university I chose but at least I chose a job fitting my personality and be happy with it.

  45. About 5 years ago, I began to fall into a really depressive episode. I thought if ever I have a new sweetheart I will go back to who I am before but I was completely wrong. Happy I never missed on following the steps that this depression therapy “fetching kafon press” (Google it) is suggesting. And I`m very happy today since I am not going thru depression anymore..

  46. I still remember the time when I got myself out of depression months ago thanks to this depression treatment method “fetching kafon press” (Google it). I was jobless on crutches abroad residing in a shoebox with a ruined heart. But I am a totally different person today, happy and very satisfied in life..

  47. I have depression because I use to have all my friends with me together but out of nowhere they starting to hate me and whenever I’m trying to make them laugh or do something to entertain them I accidentally do something I didn’t even mean to do and they promise me they won’t hate me but I guess I was wrong

  48. It feels like my depression is living my life for me, like it's steeling or taking my life away from me. I don't feel like I have control over my own decisions, I just follow along because I'm too exhausted to fight back.

    when people tell me to just stop focusing on the negative things and instead think about the positive things, I feel angry. "Why are people so naïve? If it were that easy I would have done it already, why don't they understand?" and then I feel guilty. "I can't be mad at them, they are just trying to help"

  49. My friend always tells everyone in the class that he have depression but I think he doesn't know what is the difference between depression and sadness

  50. I can just see the 7th graders watching this being like " OMGG😭😭 SO DEEP I HAVE DEPRESSION TOO😭😭😭"

    Edit: guys I wasn't trying to make a joke about mental illness, as a person who who has been diagnosed with 6 i would never make a joke about it I'm just talking about the kids who self diagnosis, post depression memes and cut for attention

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